I love tech. I record bands. I shoot photos. I make YouTube videos. I play in a band. I have a full-time job and I’m building a business.

It’s a lot. Maybe too much…

I am the poster child for shiny object syndrome. I want to do it all. Not just dabble; but do everything at a high level. When I get fired up about a new creative idea, it’s nearly impossible to come back down to earth and be realistic about what I’m actually capable of doing.

So I do more.

And more.

And more.

Until…

Burnout.

If you’ve been following me for a while, you’ve probably seen this cycle before: burnout → existential crisis → hard reset → new interest → repeat.

It’s the creative carousel from hell.

Now throw neurodivergence into the mix, and suddenly I’m trying to build a creative business with a brain that’s allergic to focus.

How do you build anything sustainable when your direction changes every other week?

This crash was the worst I’ve had in a long time—but also the most clarifying. I’m lucky to have incredible friends, family, and a fiancé who keep it real with me when I need it most. Here’s what I learned:

Not everything has to become a business. I’ve spent more time planning potential income streams than actually building one.

For example: I’ve fallen in love with photography over the past couple years. But I’ve realized that I don’t want to turn it into a full-blown business. I just enjoy using my camera—and that’s okay. Sometimes it’ll support my brand, and sometimes I’ll get paid to shoot. But more often than not, I want to create simply because I love it.

And that’s enough.

I am terrible at consistency. One day I’m all-in on music. The next, I’m sketching product ideas. Then I’m redesigning my website or editing a video.

That kind of mental pinball isn’t good for growth—personal or professional. The biggest gift I can give myself right now is showing up every day with a steady hand. Not perfect. Not maxed out. Just consistent.

I could say more, but I’ll end it here. For anyone else feeling stuck, scattered, or burnt out, I hope this helps you know that you’re not alone. I’m right here with you figuring this whole creative thing out.

The picture’s still coming into focus, but for the first time in a while, I actually feel like I’m looking through the right lens.

Build Fast. Break Stuff. Have Fun.

Paps.